December, 2008

Blank after Mumbai

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Spoke with Sushant Das (CTO, Chakra Interactive), with whom I am very pally since the Phonologies days (2003-4). That's when I used to work at Dhanraj Mahal, the building almost next to the Taj Hotel, or a stone's throw distance from Leopold Cafe (it was so close that I should have said, "Sharon Stone's throw distance") ... 

It's when I got talking to him that I started to 'live' the attacks. He mentioned to me how he was about to get down for dinner on that fatal, fateful night, just before the first bullet was shot. How not only men, women and children were shot by laughing gunmen, but also dogs which dared to bark and disturb them in their holy mission. How some one of his acquaintances bled to death while celebrating a birthday.

I have a habit of going for a thoughtful walk after my meals - and I used to cross the Cafe everyday to just roam around in Colaba Causeway, then measure the entire periphery of the Taj Hotel, and return back to my workdesk. Today, when I think of it, I feel scared, and much more dejected about it all.

Even today, I am unaware of what to say and do. Should I thank God for the fact that my ex-office people are still alive, or should I forget these personal linkages and mourn for the general? Should I stop going to movies and hotels from now on, and avoid any public place, like malls, especially during the weekends? Should I go to that upcoming conference in Bombay - which will be held in another 5-starred hotel?

Probably not. I shouldn't. But, probably, I will.

 

Pray. Not for yourself. Never. But for those who have been praying for you all this while.

 

 

Smiley Moon - Truly Wonderful!

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This is how the Bangalore sky looked on 1st Dec., 2008! I normaly walk my way back to home (which is actually just a house, not a home), and last evening saw a couple of lasses on the street clicking photographs of the sky. I was stunned to see this wonderful sight: two stars had assembled near the crescent moon - making it a perfect moon-smiley!

{edited later: these are not stars - these are Mercury and Venus! Thanks to Ashish for watching CNN and letting me know).

Called mom, but she could not trace the moon from Gwl! Went home, dusted my handycam, and clicked a picture - and have placed it here without any enhancements. Isn't it just too great!

To whom do I dedicate this picture to? Hmmm ... to didi (who's back in Singapore and missnig India like yenything), and her naughty little child who enthralled me every minute with his new-found antics (the latest one was to pose like a teapot and, very cutely, say, "look I am a tea-pot!") .. Oh! I miss him so much!

[mood change]

Everytime I am sitting in the waiting lounge to board a plane, I observe this: the moment the 'boarding' of the jet commences, more than 50 people line-up in the queue. I wonder, "Why"! Everyone has numbered tickets, there's no way they can get a 'better' seat by beating others to the gate! But 10 our of 10 times, I see them lining in the queue. 

This time, while I was boarding a plane to Delhi, I wondered about this again. Called Parle to talk about this (he confesses that he is always in an analytical state) who opined that it's because these people want to grab hold of the baggage space overhead. My argument was that luggage can be easily put under the seat ahead of yours, but Parle made me concede that everyone needs space enough to spread their legs. 

After the recent family gathering, I am again longing to spend another few days en famille, and then yet another few days. I can understand, didi, how you must be feeling. 

 

Happy is the man with a loving family ... in a neighbouring town.

 

 

Ghajini - The Parasitic Collection

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Initially, I wasn't very impressed with some side-listening of the Ghajini soundtrack (as in, listening to the songs when someone in the distance is playing it). But as is with almost all of Rahman's albums, Ghajini's songs turned out to be amazingly parasitic - they grew upon me over the last one day, and I can't stop listening to them now!

Listen to them here.

Trying to pick the best track on the album is like rolling a dice. Depending on the aura and your mood, any song might seem the best. Currently, I like the following in the listed order:

1) Kaise Mujhe (both, the vocal, and the instrumental number).

I wish Rahman had sung this (seems like he did the initial 'ooo'-ing - Chadha, please confirm if it's Rahman doing it), but of late his singing talents have diminished (don't kill me for this blasphemy - you have the right to not read my writings). The song features a new male voice, and very fresh and trancy at that, Benny Dayal. Ofcourse, the female singer is Shreya Ghoshal, who just can't stop singing great songs these days.

When I listen to this song, I feel like some element of something is missing in life ... but don't know what.

2) Behka, and Guzarish.

I am egalitarian on this - can't really differentiate between the two as far as the soothing feel is concerned. Sonu Nigam croons with Javed Ali (who sang Jashn-e-Bahara in the Jodha Akbar album) in Guzarish, and he croons like he always does! You can't stop humming once you get the lyrics well.

Behka is a great song (again) sung by some fellow called Karthik. Very much a KK-ish song. The great part, though, is the wonderful saxaphone that keeps going in the background - lending a dark, jazzy feel to the song. This could well be a song filmed in a pub or a bar. The lyrics - not much to mention about. 

There is a 'South Indian' touch to these two songs, but to hell with that! Worth listening! 

Prasoon Joshi does some lyrical job here - which can not even be compared with Taare Zameen Par - but the lyrics are better than what P. K. Mishra used to do! However, here are some wonderful sentences from Kaise Mujhe ...

... देखूं तुम्हे या मैं सुनूं ...

तुम हो सुकून, तुम हो जुनून

 

But the bottom line: Rahman ... is unmatchable. Am I tempted enough to see the movie after listening to the songs? Not really - thes songs give a southie-movie feel to the context, and I guess the movie will turn out to be of similar nature. Probably I will spend not more than 70/- on it   

 

Money couldnt buy friends, but you get a better class of enemy.

 

 

Handle with Care. Fragile.

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Talking about the human body ... 

Bharat called me today in the morning, and informed me that he is on bed rest, in a hospital, following severe neck and spinal pains, and is being fed through drips and all. 

While all you can do with a patient is be patient yourself, my head was abusing him from within. Here's what people do: 

  1. They make sure that their Blackberries stay in their leather covers when they aren't using them;
  2. They make sure that the laptop bag or backpack is well cushioned from all sides;
  3. They make sure that they laminate the screens on their phones ...

and a whole lot of other stuff, but they forget that their bodies are machines as well, and need proper food, proper power, proper maintenance. I know Bharat spent the last month staring endlessly at his screen and proving his loyalties to his employers ... but any excuse for not getting proper exercise is just that - an excuse. 

People have all the time in the world to get 4 hrs of exercise in a week, and people have the know-how of what to do and not, and people can also put in a one-time effort and discover a sport they can play in their locality. But people are lazy bums who feel that by working all day they have done something commendable. 

Anyway, get well soon, Bharat. 

 

We don't stop playing because we grow old,

we grow old because we stop playing.

G. B. Shaw

 

 

Dil Kabaddi - Class Movie ... 3rd Class

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Saw my first ever First-Day-First-Show movie today (Parle tricked me into it) - and it was a huge, huge disappointment.

By the looks of it, Dil Kabaddi seems to be that classy kind, like Metro, or other such unusual, cosmopolitan movies which thrive on a great storyline (with which we can really relate), great screenplay, wonderful acting, and some nice direction. However, the only good thing about this movie was the acting which, I am sure, was an effort of the actors alone. You really can't get these bunch of actors to act bad, can you?!

The movie is about urban marriages, sex lives of couples, and fading compatibilities. The movie had the potential to be a nice one, and it had some very thoughtful interactions between characters that make you realise important stuff about relationships, but the direction by some Anil Sharma (debutant) screwed it up - completely.

Irfan Khan's role was the best and he did complete justice to it. 4 out of 5, 5 being good.

Rahul Bose ... well ... I hate him (I once spoke with him over phone regarding rugby, and its promotion in India, and all he could show was a-t-t-i-t-u-d-e) .. so I may be biased when I say that he was pretty tasteless.

Konkana ... I would say that you should really see this movie if you want to say Konkana's worst ever performance. 

Soha Ali Khan ... well ... leave her. She's an ok actor, and did an ok job in this one.

Rahul Khanna - well, his presence was like asking an Indian barber to 'trim', or 'cut it medium', or 'just brush the sides' ... in short, it dosn't matter. Rahul Khanna was almost around the 35% mark. 

The movie started with hope, was pretty interesting till half quarter-time, and pacy too. Till the first half, there was some velocity in the movie. Then, all that remained was speed - the direction (by Anil Sharma) just vanished! (cheeky?)

 

BREAKFAST.COM halted... cereal port not responding!

 

 

18 Till I Die - You Bet!

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If you are a normal teenager, there's a huge chance that you may die on your 18th birthday. Blame the public authorities for this.

One fine day, these fellows decided that the legally right age to start drinking freely in public is 18. That must have been a couple of centuries ago, probably. Teenagers just couldn't wait to get to 18, and on their 18th birthdays they would go wild gulping gallons down their throats.

These fellows also decided that the legally right age for someone to start driving is the same age - 18. Teenagers couldn't wait to get to 18, and on their 18th birthdays they made it a point to unleash the driver in them. 

The result: these children get to their 18th birthdays, over-intoxicate, and over-accelerate. It's all plain mathematics from here.

Driving should only be made legal after people are used to higher levels of intoxication ... so, around 3-4 years after drinking is made legal. Doing everything together is just too much pressure on the young, bursting 18-year-olds. Really.

On the other hand, tee-totalers who don't learn driving should be put into jail, without second thought. Unlicensed teetotalling is crime, almost blasphemy. What's the use of tee-totalers, who are anyway rare to find, who don't drive? The one, and only one, real value of a tee-totaler is to drive the drunken party animals back home with safety - there's no other thing a teetotaler can be used for. They are sober, boring, moronic, conscious, aware, and constrained within the bounds of decency - all of which makes them useless losers.

 

I think drink therefore I am. 

 

 

The New Lady in my Life

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Ladies and Gentlemen, this is her ... Mahika Kapoor

Just can't believe this really happened - much sooner than anyone predicted! The world's going to change for Miki didi and Ashish! My formal congratulations to both of 'em! 

Children's names should end with a vowel, or even better, made of two syllables.

Makes it easier to yell out their names.

 

 

3 Days at the IIT Madras

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For small and medium  companies like MeraSport, it makes sense to network as much as possible, within the right communities. What better occasion, then, than one of the most important alumni-gatherings for the IITs - the Pan-IIT Global Conference!

Thankfully, this time it was held in IIT Madras (still don't know whether they call it IIT Chennai). The Inter-IIT was held the weekend before, and how much I regret missing it (especially since IIT Bombay won both the boys and the girls GC)! When I went to the gorgeous campus for the Pan-IIT confy, I made-up for 1% of that missed opportunity by visiting one of my meccas - the IIT Madras Volley Ground - where we once thrashed the maddus to win our volley gold (in my 4 'away' inter-iits - Madras, Kanpur, Kharagpur, Delhi - we have always screwed the home team in the volley finale, except for 2002, when we lost to the home team - Delhi - in the finals. Why that happened is a story in itself)!!

Amidst the hanging foliage (they don't ever cut the branches, it seems) and the variety of species (deers were in abundance, and seem to have gotten used to the human crowd - they were roaming around as freely), was the nostalgic setting crowded by 3000 IITians, all talking in the lingo that only IITians can speak fluently. Then, there were some celebrities who spoke well. 

The trouble was, not many of my batchmates were around - probably not even one. Probably 50% of them are giving all they can to the US Society, while the others would have found Chennai pretty much out of reach. It would have been much more spicier had some more familar faces popped up now and then. However, I did get to meet Parshu (H6, 3-4 yrs junior to me), and Kapil Tyagi (H2, apna pyaara bachcha)! Of course, I piled on in OP's home, so that was a bonus. Then, some Guwahati guys claimed to remember the name, "Topi" from the Kharagpur Inter-IIT, but could not associate my face to it yet ... it was good-feel nonetheless.

Amongst the celebrities were Vijay Amritraj, Anil Kumble, Vishwanathan Anand, Rajiv Menon (the great cinematographer), Amartya Sen, Orkut Büyükkökten, and Hema Malini. Here's some funny stuff involving them:

Vijay Amritraj was moderating a PD involving Kumble and 4 others. He introduced the other 4, and moved on to the PD. When reminded about AK's intro, all he could say was, "Now! You want me to introduce Anil Kumble to you?!"

Vishy Anand was with his wife, who was introduced as a chess fanatic herself - but of a different kind. The narrator/announcer said, "While Vishy plays chess, her wife enacts it in her family: the King is fixed, and the Queen has all the powers!!" Pretty-Witty.

Rajiv Menon was asked, "You didn't try to become an actor?" ... to which he replied, "Well! I was always a bad student - and never obedient. I liked to give orders, hence, cinematography came naturally, acting didn't!" Rajiv Menon's humilty reminded me of A. R. Rahman (and they are good friends in life).

Hema Malini started her talk with a simple comment which earned the maximum applause: "It's good to be amongst intellectuals ... for a change!" I was never a fan of the on-screen HM, but when I observed her, I was an instant fan. There was nothing artificial about her, no airs, no sweet-talk, no efforts to look graceful, no embelishments to look out-of-the-box, just nothing gaudy! Probably the most naiive woman I may have seen (you can guess how smitten-kitten I am)!

For once, I liked a trip to Chennai. The city sucks so much that I hated the Inter-IIT of 99, and another visit which I had made this October. Infact, apart from the Pan-IIT and the stay at OP's, everything else was still awful. 

Apna contingent for Inter-IIT bagged 97.75 points, 0.25 points short of the record that we set in 98! So, that was something pleasing (yes, I want that record to sustain - that's what the kid in me wants).

The more rocking story, however, was that this was the 1st ever time that some 'away' contingent had won the GC at Madras; and also the first ever time that the boys and the girls GC were won together.

I had my conversations with Appaji Sir and Edwin Sir, and seems that the entire group is celebrating and pretty kicked about it! Why not! I, sitting miles away, can feel it myself! I was disappointed, though, to observe that the bachchas managed some 7 points in marchpast. Violating all the rules of the marchpast has been the hallmark of the IITB contingent. When our 2001-contingent lost the KGP Inter-IIT by 2 points, never did once we regret our 0 points in the marchpast. Marchpast excellence was reserved for boring contingents like Guwahati, Madras, and off-late, Roorkee. 

Hopefully the guys sang "Lova Lova" loud enough ...

What's the difference between beer nuts and deer nuts?
Beer nuts can be obtained for around Rs. 10/-.
Deer nuts can be found under a buck!
 
 
 

Dreadful Year - Personal Note

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While I write this, the general population is busy preparing for the year ending/starting party, cocktails, and fireworks of all kinds. Looking back, this year, my 30th in this world, was probably the worst of them all.

I have been speaking with some people whom I know very well, and *each one* of them has confided that there have been eras in their lives where they had this constant urge to kill themselves, but that thing called hope dragged them through. At the start of this year, when I was going through a similar zone of disillusionment of my own, I had a feeling that I am one of those unfortunate few - but to my amazement (and let me clearly admit here - it was a relief too - a much needed boost to my faltering ego), *every one* I asked conceded about their own periods of depression - be it due to love (or lack of it), work, family, money, deaths etc. etc. This is the time when the mind keeps churning one thought or the other, keeps fighting with itself, when all your ideals and rules come crashing down, when all you feel like doing is leave the country and settle in a place, detached from your current circle, where no one knows you! (Here, I find it important to mention that this is exactly the time when one should refrain from taking life-decisions - the mind is just not healthy enough).

So, while earlier I was craving for sympathetic attention from my people (the more the better), everything seems pretty normal now. Everyone does have a bad time once in a while - happens more with entrepreneurs who live and sleep in uncertainty almost every day, and can see their peers making money, marrying, and making-merry! Also, the choice was entirely mine - I chose to be independent, and loneliness is always the price you pay for independence.

I am pretty sure that if I didn't have my FCUK football group, and the every-morning indulgence of some really enticing football, I would have been a complete slouch today! Some suggested hi-fi tranquilizing medicines, some suggested yogic postures - but almost all the 'experts' I happened to chance upon informed me that *every* individual goes through atleast 6 months of utterly-suicidal personal depression betweem the age of 25-35 (beware you folks)!!!

I was told, mostly by misleaders, that there is only so much that can get one out of such times: loads of attention, sex, positive indulgence, and medicine (or some structured therapy). On second thoughts, I believe these may be some easier, loser-type solutions. People can do much better and come out of it all in style. However, living on one's own, on the other hand, makes sure that all loneliness is soon converted to isolation, which converts to insulation. After that, God save the soul.

For me, the most depressing aspect of that entire period was staying in a ulti-moronic city like Bangalore - without ol' friends, without any chai-ki-dukaan (really - you want a chai here - you have to go out to Mochas or CCD and spend 50 obscene-bucks), without any hindi-speaking people (suffocating - truly suffocating). This city just sucks - big time - so much so that I am tempted to now think about moving out of here. I would have done that a long time ago if not for MeraSport - with which I was finding my feet under the table all throughout the year. Actually, living in the southern zone of India can be pretty exacting on mind. 

Thankfully, though, ManU (whom I follwed very closely with Garima, Bongi, and Garima's Cold Coffees) won the Champions League, the Premier League, and there was Euro 2008 to see all through the summers ...!

Getting out of this phase required pushing myself to the Monday morning movies, initiating a project involving street children and sports (initially very amoebic, but taking good shape today), working voluntarily for the IITBAA Bangalore Chapter (and the FCUK football group), watching football at pubs with the nice friends at FCUK, toning and building myself physically to whatever extent I could, and designing-and-printing tees (I'll soon put them up on this site for sale)!

(While I pray that 2009 fares much better for me, all you depressed people out there - roll your sleeves up, catch the bull by it's horns, and do something about your state lest you regret later. Please, also, start following ManU - that will keep you in high spirits).

The worst thing anyone in this state could do, though, is to stay quiet and not call their friends/family and share the state with them. There's no ego to be lost  - infact, this is the time friends and family are really made for. They *will* be of some help atleast (unless they are really depressed themselves) ... if not fully healing.

While I strike the keys, I am listening to the magnificent Rabbi singing, "Barhe din baad kal aaya uhda phone si ... kahinda din ta langh jaanday, par shaam ni ..." (There's one more solid line from this song, Gill 'Te Guitar, which leaves me moved, "Jadon na kujh agge disse ... Tahion banda vekhe pichhe") ...

Beautiful! People reading this blog regularly know my traditional sign-off routine with a quote. The one below, however, happens to be one of my favourites!

It's the downs that make the roller-coaster rides so exciting!

 

 

My GameDay Tweets!

8 weeks 3 days ago — Manchester City vs Blackburn Rovers (ESPN, 0124hrs)! Next set of games on the 16th!
8 weeks 5 days ago — ESPN: Hul-Che (1810), Ars-Eve (2025), Bir-ManU (2255); STAR: Wig-Ast (2025) Check the new football tshirt at www.toubebas.com!
9 weeks 4 days ago — FA Cup on PIX: (1830) ManU-Leeds; (2330) WHU-Arsenal. Y'DAY's FA CUP: Ast 3-1 Bla, Mid 0-1 ManC, Rea 1-1 Liv, Wig 4-1 Hull, Tot 4-0 Pet